Monday, March 26, 2012

Who will be my mother?

It has been so long since I've posted! A lot has happened and it's all good stuff thank heavens! The biggest and best news is that I am pregnant! We are having a baby in August and we couldn't be more excited. My husband has wanted to have kids since we got married but I wasn't ready so we held off until I was prepared. I am so grateful for his support of me, especially through my mom's death and my grieving after. I still have my moments of tough grief. Yesterday was a hard day for me, I heard a story in church that made me just break down but thankfully those tough days are very few and far between. Being pregnant is hard too, so many hormones, so many questions to ask my mom, so many moments thinking if this is what her pregnancies were like. I know that she's right here with me through this entire thing and that makes me happy. I know that she would be so elated and such a wonderful grandma.

hi from inside my belly!

If you want to hear the story that made me cry like a baby in a public setting you can watch this video. The story starts on 18:37 and ends a few minutes later around 20:25. This video was a message from one of the leaders of my church. The Relief Society that she is speaking about is the female section of our church. If you'd like to learn more about the Relief Society or about my church go here.

I have asked myself that question many times. Who will be my mother? Everyone needs a loving wonderful mother like I had but if you don't have a mother you need someone. I am lucky enough to have my wonderful family and Andrew's wonderful family and all of my amazing friends. They don't replace my mom but they are such a joy and aid in my life. I hope more than anything I can be around for my babies until I am old but if I can't I know that there are so many wonderful people in my life that would step in and help my family in any way and that I am so grateful for.